Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Wise words

Everyone has a plan 'til they get punched in the mouth.

-Mike Tyson

2012 in bullets

It's been a long time since I blogged. It's hard to say if I'm turning over a new leaf or not - January is typically not a great blogging month for me - but I have a lot to catch up on and want to make a fresh start. So here are a few highlights to get up to date:
  • I lost about 25 lbs last year. Still have more to go but that can happen in 2013.
  • Biked slickrock in Moab for the second time in my life - one of the hardest physical activities I have EVER done (up there with hiking Havasupai and running a marathon).
  • My last living grandparent moved to Utah. My mom and I went to California and brought my Grandma home with us. She moved into a care center and just this week got into an assisted living center. She's doing great.
  • Ran the Wasatch Back, Hobble Creek Half, and St. George Marathon. Got a PR at Hobble Creek and came within 10 minutes of my marathon PR at St. George. Decided it may be my last marathon but now I'm having second thoughts. ;) Playlist is coming...
  • Started a new career in recruiting. Sounds crazy I know. I always knew that I wouldn't be in Finance forever and I had an opportunity to be mentored by some people who are the best out there.
  • Moved to Plano, Texas. It has been a long couple of months. House has sold and closes on 1/31/13.
  • There was a movie filmed at my house in November. When it comes out I'll make a note of it on the blog, and maybe then I'll tell the long dramatic story. But basically the filmmaker saw my house on my realtor's website and since I had already moved to Texas...
  • Met the most amazing man and then I lost him. Biggest heartbreak of my life so far, but I proved to myself that I actually learned something from the last one. I will never be with someone who doesn't realize how lucky he is to have me.
  • Cecily announced she is PREGNANT and due on July 13, 2013. I'm going to be an AUNT!!!!!
  • And since I don't want to mention that I had the flu AGAIN on the last day of the year, I'll close it out with Bryan's wedding on December 27th.
It was a great year and a lot of things changed in my life. I'm so grateful. Some things need to change still but 2013 is going to be another good year. Maybe even better.

After the Storm

And after the storm,
I run and run as the rains come
And I look up, I look up,
on my knees and out of luck,
I look up.

Night has always pushed up day
You must know life to see decay
But I won't rot, I won't rot
Not this mind and not this heart,
I won't rot.

And I took you by the hand
And we stood tall,
And remembered our own land,
What we lived for.

And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

And now I cling to what I knew
I saw exactly what was true
But oh no more.
That's why I hold,
That's why I hold with all I have.
That's why I hold.

And I won't die alone and be left there.
Well I guess I'll just go home,
Oh God knows where.
Because death is just so full and man so small.
Well I'm scared of what's behind and what's before.

And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

Mumford and Sons

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Exercise is not an option

There are many things in my day to day that are just not an option – brushing my teeth and going to work are just a couple of examples. There are also many things that need to be added to that list.

Things I need to do like it’s my job:

Exercise every day except Sunday, even if it’s just a short run, not an option

Taking my vitamins, not an option

Drinking plenty of water, not an option

Saying my prayers, not an option

Being kind, not an option

I'm sure there are a million more that would benefit my life if I would just do them daily, but I have to start somewhere. No more excuses for not doing the little things (that are big).

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Today, today

Well, I was going to write about how I signed up for the St. George Marathon lottery this morning, and how excited I am and how I really hope I get in, and how I might have some friends joining me this year, and how I already reserved a hotel room and I'm really proud of myself for being so on the ball. But today has turned out to be such an interesting day on top of that.

At 1pm I had another open house (first one was on Friday), which I should have said no to - it was just too much. I raced around after conference to clean up a little and get ready to leave for two hours. As I was driving away I realized my tire was completely flat. I pulled over to the side of the road to think for a minute, called my brother, then decided I was just going to risk driving to the gas station to fill the tire up with air (I'm still not sure if I did any permanent damage). I went to Hilary's and hung out (alone) until the open house was over, then came home and decided I better change the tire. I could hear air leaking and I figured it would be flat again by morning. Of course it's Sunday and of course it was raining.

Some random kid stopped and asked if he could help. That was after it took me about 20 minutes just to figure out how to get the compartment open with the jack and tools, how to lower the spare tire and where to put the jack. He showed up for the easy part. But he was really quick and I really was grateful for the help. I haven't stopped thinking all afternoon about the kindness of people and how I want to be more like the kid that stopped to help me.

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Don't pick your nose

One of the funniest things to me is when I see an elegant older man in a classy car picking his nose. It happens all the time, you wouldn't believe it. Just yesterday I was leaving work, walking to the parking garage, and this man-in-a-suit in a beautiful silver Infiniti was going at it in his rear-view mirror. He probably works in the Wells Fargo building. Do men over 50 just have more boogers? Do people just like to pick their noses in their cars? Maybe it's dry in the car and they have no Kleenex. Maybe it's like singing in the car (you think no one is watching...). I don't know, but it cracks. me. up.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Alone in my house

My roommate has been out of town for a couple of days and I have been the world's biggest scaredy cat! I've lived alone before and I'm totally fine with it, but you get used to having someone around and all of a sudden every little noise is scary. Saturday I had a showing on my house and when I got home late Saturday night I realized the jack-ass Realtor left my front door unlocked! I was so upset it took me about 10 minutes before I could get myself to walk upstairs and check out the house. I was so worried I'd walk into my bedroom and find my underwear all over my bed or something, ew. So tonight I decided I'd check out the sex offender registry for my neighborhood, and guess what...it's not as bad as I thought it would be. There are only a couple within several blocks of my house. I feel a little better.

Monday, March 26, 2012

Too tired from too much fun

Saturday turned out to be a full day of fun, like, I probably pushed it. I ran six miles, which was uncomfortable the entire time because I haven't run more than three in about six weeks. I have the Salt Lake Half Marathon coming up on April 21 so I need to ramp up pretty quickly, ie no wusses allowed. The Relief Society activity was also pretty cool. We went up to This is the Place Heritage Park for a special tour and I really enjoyed hanging out with some of my friends in the ward. However, I had to leave early because I got tickets to "The Hunger Games"!!! Of course I was late, and of course I had the tickets in my purse, so I had four other people pretty irritated by the time I flew into the theater. The movie was awesome. I forgot how sad the book was though and I didn't realize how depressing it would be to see that stuff happen on screen. Totally worth it though; I'm sure I'll see it a few more times while it's still in the theaters. Definitely one to buy... RSL game topped it off Saturday night, and of course I have no pics. I got no house cleaning done, no yard work done, no "work" work done, and my Sunday School lesson on Sunday was painful, but Saturday was a blast and days like that don't come around very often.
My girl crush, Jennifer Lawrence

Thursday, March 22, 2012

The story of my life

Favorite "pin" of the week, quoted from some ecards:

Why is "patience" a virtue? Why can't "hurry the f*** up" be a virtue?

Squeezing the balloon

I always liked the saying "work hard, play hard" and thought I was that kind of person. However I think I'm at a point in my life where I can finally admit I might not be. I can't do everything I want to do and it's not just because I'm lazy. I have a finite amount of resources and if those are being expended in one area, another area suffers. If I'm stressed at work, I can't exercise consistently. If I'm on a diet, I need more sleep. For my entire life I've gone through these cycles of operating at max capacity with the incredible highs that come with that, then completely crashing and going through long stretches of time where I can't do anything. That's a tough way to live. I can't do it anymore, and I can't keep beating myself up for what I'm not capable of. No, I'm not in therapy and no, I'm not bi-polar. I'm a balloon that's filled to average capacity and finally understand what I can get from what's inside.